Yesterday night I had an open vision, was given context of several others I’d had for people in my class, and I experienced 100% healing of my voice. Most of which I am still wonderstruck even happened - I have checked so many times today to make sure it wasn’t a dream. Its not.
I can actually sing again for the first time in almost two years with no tension, no cracking, no pain. Allow me to process this a bit, and I’ll go into details about it later, but just wow.
Praise be to the Lord.
Don’t marry me.
you don’t want to be kept up
till 2 a.m. as I sit in bed, violently scribbling
in a notebook that is falling apart at the seams,
you don’t want to encounter a flooded bathroom,
or a teapot boiled dry, or the milk spoiled
on the counter
you don’t want to unexpectedly find your eyebrows,
or your laugh, or a minute description of your
beautiful knotty hands
written in my latest story
you don’t want to pull over to
the side of the curb of the highway for every road trip
because I have taken a fancy for a bouquet
you don’t want to spend time
looking for me,
only to find me absorbed in a book
in the top of the willow tree in our backyard,
or lost among your coats in the under the stairs
Don’t marry me.
you don’t want to have to put up
with my crying jags, my soft tender
feelings for completely random strangers
you don’t want to have me falling in love with
every picturesque mailbox
or faded road sign.
you don’t want me appropriating your choicest
sweaters, or finding that I have once again slept all day,
so I can write all the night.
i want a simple life. i don’t need a lot. i don’t want a lot. i want a clear mind away from distractions. i want structure. i want to have discipline. i want to have time to go to mass and say the rosary every day. i want to wake up and go to bed with the sun. i want to simply love people for who they are. i don’t want to wear shoes. i don’t want to be defined by the job i have or how much money i make. i want to eat a lot of fruits and vegetables. i want to watch the flowers grow and climb trees. i want to scrub dishes and floors. i want to help people. i want to love Jesus out loud. i want to read all the books. i want to feel beautiful just being me. i want to wear my hair curly all the time. i want to walk everywhere. simple things. i believe true happiness in life lies in simplicity. thats my goal for this new year, simplify.
this is my best friend meg and she is an incredible human.
Welp the ensemble list just went up, meaning I’m putting off my practicing so I can steer clear of the music building because I’m pretty sure shit is about to get very real
i love swope
My life is a actually a joke. Like, literally. Sometimes its a funny one and sometimes its just so dumb that you have to laugh at it. And you know what? I’m perfectly okay with that. And this is because of my friends. In the past year, the most amazing people have come into my life and I know that no matter where I go, no matter where they go, they will remain in my life and I in theirs forever. With their help, I have learned so much about life, about myself, about love, support, and true friendship. Honestly, I don’t know that I’n ready to start this new chapter of my life without them, but it is nice to know that they will always just be a phone call away supporting and walking me through every step of the way. So, to whoever may be reading this, thank you. For everything. You have no idea how much you all mean to me.
this is my best friend meghan and i love her so much. She has been a spiritual mentor to me and I’ve never met anyone who is striving to be so holy.